RFKC and children in general...

My world has been rocked lately and tonight, I just cannot sleep until I write it down. Or in this case type it down. I miss my RFKC girls like crazy. And you know, it might not even be that I miss them, but I'm slightly worried about them. I know a decent taste of what they were coming from when they showed up at RFKC and if it hasn't gotten any better, that concerns me. I love D and E so much. and M and P. They were my girls. I can't type their real names for security purposes and their own well being is on my heart, so for now, their initials is their name. I didn't even want children a few months ago. Now, I want to work at CPS and I want to save every child in sight from ever having to be harmed again. God has really changed my heart about a lot of things and children so far are the biggest thing that I've had to give to God. And when I mean give to God I mean tell Him that if He wants me to be with them, then fine. I'll do it because I love Him. But now I want to do it for them AND Him. Make sense? But I don't want to work with the kids that have normal lives and are "safe" from parental abuse or adult abuse in general. I want to work with the kids that think they have no one and then all the sudden, God shows up. There needs to be more Christians in CPS. More people willing to stand up for children the way they deserve. What have they ever done wrong to deserve such awful treatment from their parents? Is being completely innocent to the things of this world so terrible? Not properly knowing right and wrong from birth so they should be beaten everyday of their young lives? Is that what they need? Really? Or do they need love??? LOVE. It makes me so angry when I see a parent beat their child or scream at them or tell them to shut up. Even something to small to the world can mean a whole lot to a child. God created them too. We used to be them. Do we deserve to be beaten? Yes. Do we deserve to have all of our mistakes thrown into our faces over and over again? Yes. But some of the time, when we do get "beaten" and our mistakes are shoved in our faces, where does that anger go? The poor child. They don't know why. They don't know what they did wrong, which is nothing. As Christians, what happened to us? What happened to our confidence and faith when we see trouble arising? I'm not seeing anything to be proud of here. RFKC is the first experience that I've ever had with foster children who have been abused and neglected. I shouldn't of had to wait so long. Teenagers need to know what's happening in the world, but sometimes they are too "busy". There is no such thing as busy. God created time so I'm sure that He can create more of it. Or at least help figure out the messes that we as humans tend to make sometimes. God, help me to live the life I've given to You as abnormal. Above average. Christ followers do NOT blend. They stand out. That's what we are supposed to do. Right?