Better...

I feel as though, even though it has only been a day and a half, that I'm doing better. I didn't take my walk this morning so instead of listening to secular music while getting ready, I played some worship music. It felt real good to listen to some music that you knew at the end of each "love" song that whoever it was being sung to would continue to be sung to forever. I'm not a huge fan of Christian music. As in, "Keys to the Kingdom" or anything by an artist who doesn't do worship. There's a big difference between Christian and worship. I like worship. Today, this is my quiet time. God, yesterday was super boring...please help me to make some kinda fun out of work today. I pray that if Renee or Craig are really nice and good and funny that they open up to us today. I just need some fun at work. Somehow God, help me to start loving my job again. And maybe to make it fun for other people that I work with. I don't want anyone to start hating their jobs. And none of us are real thrilled about the new desks that we are getting moved too. Even with that God, help me to find joy in it. Everything happens for a reason, so for whatever reason this is happening, I'll embrace it as a blessing from you. To be able to talk to people with out having to leave my cubicle is a plus. Now, all you gotta do is stand up. That's fun. God I love You so much. I'm sorry for the trouble I've been in, but I am doing better now. Look at me. Whenever I think about the things I've done, yes I still feel the guilt, I want to get rid of it, but I don't feel right about giving it to you. But by not doing, I'm just putting you back on that cross. So God, please take my guilt. You know what I've done, you know how I feel. Please forgive me, and somehow, help me to use this as something to help others. Help me not to get my own feelings mixed up. I think You know what I mean by that. Be my today. Be my today. You're so beautiful. So gracious. So caring and forgiving. I love You so much. Thank You God. I will stand today.
Love,
Kellie